Calm

Maybe it's just the calm before the storm. But I was going through a bunch of old messages, and little quotes. I try so goddamn hard to document things that are special to me. And I just smiled. I kind of feel like I'm going to be okay. I keep telling myself that it's over, because that's what everyone tells is the best thing for me. I just kind of don't believe it. That might upset some of you. I know it does. And I don't know what to say except I take comfort in thinking he will still be part of my life. He's my best friend. Maybe he has already moved on, and i'm sure i will still bitch and moan that things aren't going my way. But just momentarily, I need this calm.